Sunday, May 21, 2006

My Father: 28 Nov 1944-20 May 2006

Yesterday my father died nearly instantly from a heart attack. My mother attempted to revive him by CPR. Not even the paramedics could help him. We miss him. My mother is not doing well. She's known him since she was 18. She met him on his 18th birthday. None of us know what we are going to do.

This will be my last post for quite a while.

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

--W.H. Auden

8 comments:

Genevieve said...

I am so very sorry, Sarabeth. It's very hard to lose a parent. I know it has to be a terrible shock and truly heartbreaking. I will be praying for your mom and for you, too.

Trixie said...

Sarabeth, I am so very sorry to read of your family's loss. I felt like I was starting to learn about your dad's personality from your blogs. I can tell that he had a very special place in all of your lives. Hugs to all of you.

jarhead john said...

I'm sorry to hear that you've suffered such a loss. I have nothing but the best wishes for you.

Liz Self said...

We will be thinking of you and the girls. Wes lost his most beloved grandfather a few months ago, and it was hard on him, even though it was expected. I know Inwe will also experience the loss, so we'll be sending good thoughts her way, too.

Kell said...

Oh, Sarabeth - I'm so grieved for you - I've lost so many people this year - but I can't imagine what I'd do without my Dad -

I guess, if it helps - I'll tell you what helped me during all these crappy times - remember the good things - the laughs, the love, the wisdom... And celebrate that... Keep remembering - keep talking. Keep grateful -

I'm so sad for you.

I am a Milliner's Dream, a woman of many "hats"... said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, and the world's loss with your Dad's passing. I told Dr. Phillip the same. I can't imagine the sadness and will be praying for you.

Hh

Amka said...

Sarabeth,

I wish there were words I could write that would heal the pain. It must be so difficult to lose your dad and your children's grandfather. All I can offer is that I'll keep you and yours in my thoughts.

Take care

Anonymous said...

My words certainly cannot nearly touch the sorrow you are feeling.

Cherished memories of times past are like a lighthouse shining out into the stormy sea and will guide you to comfort.

Remember, your father's soul is not gone, it lives on in a place within each of you that love him.

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family in this trying time.

Scott - Pensacola, FL