About four weeks ago this woman fessed up to me that she was a drug addict and that she had taken the pain pills I was given after my last c-section. This was a tearful and heartfelt confession. It was real contrition on her part. She said she was going to meetings and was on a detox program. I told her that as long as she paid for the pills she stole that she could continue in her position with us. And, this was not a bad decision because I don't wear jewelry. What little I do have is actually quite valuable or is a family heirloom, and, therefore is in a safe deposit box at the bank. The things of value in our house are the large electronic items, and since I usually arrive home at the end of her cleaning session she would have no time to take these out of the house. You also have to realize that if she did really wrong by me she would jeopardize her friendship and another two job she holds with friends of mine.
Today, something changed. She told my close friend that she was no longer going to meetings because they got in the way of enjoying time with her boyfriend, who apparently is a recreational pot user. (Isn't it just getting worse by the word?) This friend, although feeling like a tattle tale, felt that I need to know this. So what are my feelings now? Oh so complicated.
- She's had an extremely rough life, nothing like the nice stable one I've always had. I don't feel as if I can judge her.
- I do not want to be contributing to her downfall by employing her and allowing her to purchase these painkillers.
- I do not want to support someone who is endangering the welfare of both her children by engaging in the culture of illegal drug use.
- I no longer trust her decision making skills or logic. She says she is focusing on her young daughter but that is just a load of carp she is spewing to make herself feel better about not doing something about her addiction.
- This woman is just cleaning my house, and the cost is not astronomical.
- She once took great care of my daughter and two sons of TWA Pilot. Nothing that is happening now can erase that.
- If I drop her from my employ will I be making her more desperate for cash? She's on public assistance for housing and food already.
- I'm trying really hard not to be a complete jerk. I really want to let her go, but I don't know what the consequences are.
- This is only helping firm my opinion that some people are beyond help, certainly beyond my help.
- If you can't get off your tush at the age of 41 and get a real job with benefits, why should I feel guilty and keep giving you jobs?